Lord, thank you for all that you’ve done for me. I left you, doubted you, and damned you. But now I am tormented by your underserving love. What is it that you want from me? If you call, I will follow. I lay down my life and livelihood for you, if that is your will.
I am scared, Lord.
Leave me not astray.
Grant me patience
For I know not when this journey ends.
Grant me courage
For I am too scared to embrace loneliness
Grant me confidence
For I cannot trust what I cannot see.
Above all, grant me your presence
For I fear pompous boastfulness.
I am tired, Lord. I know no the meaning of rest, only wounds of abandonment and scars of war. But I love you, for you have shown me love beyond all measure. Allow me to walk in your steps. I am not scared of the burden, only my own shortsightedness. Let the fruits of success be your glory and the faults of failures be mine own.
All this I pray in your name.
Amen.