I thought I was giving all the right reasons to be comfortable with her. But when she calls, half dismal, half contemplative, I start to wonder if I gave myself too little an emotional wall. I’ve been here before. I ended up marginalizing myself and pissing off a lot of people along the way. It took a long while to get here, and I’m not sure what, if any, changes to my attitude or action I need to make now.. I need to be careful. Sometimes I wish intellectually set limitations can much more easily and autonomously control emotional impulses.
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I’m learning that I’m not the best marketer. I’ve been trying to be so insistently realistic and objective that I cannot in good conscience exaggerate or sensationalize my attitudes and actions. I need to get better at this fast.