This is regret:
Lately, I’ve been thinking about you a lot. I’m sorry. I should have tried harder. I should have known. But it’s too late now. My mind is filled with nothing but your picture in the frame. I can’t believe it. Back then, it didn’t hit me as hard as it should have. I enjoyed your company. And I would still. I feel so guilty. I can no longer stand up straight. I heard we mourn deaths of others because of our own selfish desires. Maybe that’s right. But if two people are selfish about each other, what then? Maybe this was a one way relationship, who knows. I don’t know anymore. I would have taken bullets for you. Here I am, thinking about you everywhere I go. Is this what you wanted? Have someone miss you so…
My heart tears me into pieces.
I’ve failed.